I'm Sorry

[Tenshi]

lol~...
I understand...
Although sleepless nights are spent
my restless heart yearns for HER...
and so I remain
Yeah the hitting and such is part of martial arts class so it's okay
lol~

Anyways bringing physical pain is easier for me to deal with than the emotional one....

Whether to be friends or not that is no concern

this is something i wrote to her

[...]Regardless I'll still be there as your friend. I believe that even if you do not return these feelings it is fine. Being able to love you is enough. Seeing you happy is more than enough to keep me content with life. You have nothing to be sorry about, like I have told you before since it is your choice and it is sincere then it was the right choice for you. I cannot force you and would not because a relationship that is not vonluntary by both parties would be meaningless. Even if you tell me not to wait there is nothing you can do that would prevent me from waiting forever for you. My friend put it best: "I may not live forever, but I am willing to wait for you forever." For sure it hurts and for sure I will receede back into my haven to hide and heal. "In every heart there is a room. A sanctuary safe and strong. To heal the wounds from lovers past" [...] Don't cry over you... or feel melancholic... Well... Crying and being hurt is all part of this feeling that we know as love. "Pain is what makes me know i am alive" [...]

Anyways thanks gurlz n guyz