RE: GM-12 : Players evaluation
I've hesitated a lot before posting a reply here. In fact I don't even know if that's right to argue in my own poll but I feel like I needed to clear some points. I'm not all that good to express myself in english so I really hope it won't make this topic worse than it is. I have been told by some close friends who voted against me that their decision was based upon what they have heard. Some things you are saying about me are misunderstandings while some others are so typically me. I could have avoided a part of that fight by explaining who I really am but since I am a really shy person, I never really felt the need to introduce myself anywhere on the forum or the server.
First of all, my role on the server. It's true that I am making a map. Not an elaborated one really because I am truly not an artist. My main occupation though, is scripting. The map is just to put that script in. I was working on some sort of automated colosseum event as suggested somewhere on the forum. Truth is, it is not done yet because eathena's script has some "random" behaviors. I know a lot of the people on heRO can code so let me say one thing: that scripting language is a nightmare. Not documented like C, php or even x86 assembly language, some functions are deprecated (i.e. aren't recognize by the server anymore and they never tell you that anywhere on the forum) and some features are not really compatible together (i.e. usage of timers may cause the script to not recognize the player who actually called the script). I have learned all that the hard way, keeping Ben late at night to debug the script or find some new solutions. I know some people took a look at that scripting language so I know I am not speaking for nothing, I know Motoko gave it a try and Marivel already coded a decent script so I hope at least someone can understand my headaches. I am usually in-game when I am about to physically damage my computer of too much non-working scripting.??I did not tell anyone about that script because I know softwares are 90% of the time delayed and that is just what is happening to me too.??The script is probably about halfway done, registering players, summoning monsters, warping people with timers, detecting death but no ranking system is implemented yet. I hope to be finished soon, before the end of summer hopefully. I took the decision not to use my GM anymore until a decision have been taken by the main GMs according to the poll results since my GM created the most controversy. I really don't know if I'll be launching that script if ever I am evaluated as an incompetent GM but at least I'll try not to make the server worse than before. I am really sorry that I was perceived as a brainless gm just goofing around the server, which I probably was when in-game. GMs seemed to have agreed creating me a GM character mainly because people were saying there were no really active GMs: I was active and I was clever enough to help people with problems online. I did help a lot of people in-game but I never did any events (in fact I've always stated I am not an event GM) and I seem to spend too much time online according to some people. This resulted me in chatting with people when they were leveling in biolab or seals and making me look whether like a funny or a stupid GM depending on your seriousness.
Just to reassure you, I did not corrupt the server. I may not be serious at all and that probably bother a lot of you but I never gave away any item or never used my GM powers to level anyone. I did joke about my powers with my friends for sure and that may have disturbed you. For example, I did joke with SPIEGEL in pvp, publicly, about borrowing him my GM clip, thing I have not actually done. Asking GMs for free items is a thing I didn't know was that common. The seriousness of some request really surprised me a lot and I learned to joke about it. That probably doesn't excuse me at all though, that kind of joke was probably innapropriate.
About the cloning thing, at first I was cloning my friends only, maybe I went too far with that. I remember having cloned some low-level characters with the thought that they were still actively leveling and that their hp was to change a lot anyway. Second day though, I was asking for people if they wanted to be cloned. I remember Ben asking Kaede if he wanted to be cloned because a lot of people wanted him summoned, simply Kaede replied a "no" and we respected that. I remember doing the same for Melody, she replied something like "I don't care" so I summoned a bunch of her to make people happy.??I don't remember having cloned Kaede or sirona but my memory is not that good and the most I can do for now is asking to forgive me.
I am sorry for other things like interfering with ankle snares, it would have been the same if I would have been in @hide, not a clickable cell to trap, except you wouldn't have noticed it was me. I probably shouldn't have been so "visible" when looking out for that so called bug though??but I didn't want to look like I am not doing anything since that bug created already a lot of discussion. Another bad decision on my part I guess. I am sorry for copying characters too, as stated, I thought it was funny and I saw other GMs doing it too. You could have told me at that moment, I am not there to annoy people either.
About my language now... the only real advice Ben told me when making me a GM was to not use that ":@" when not talking to my friends, expression which I am really abusing. I did continue to use that emote with my friends since I didn't know it bothered that much either. If I did seem angry when doing my GM's job with people I never talked too, I am really sorry for that, it probably just slipped off my mind. It is really just a reflex for me to do that emote when I am joking. I am aware it looks rude and that makes me look quite immature.
I am overall just sorry that my GM experience was not all that appreciated, I hope you can just all forget about me now that I am gone if I was that much of a nuisance. :$
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