My apologies.

[Fyrus Carmin]

Did you ever had, a day, the impression that you weren't yourself for like, an evening, or another time ?

When people make promesses they don't keep. After all, it's their choice if they want to do this.
When people insults you when you're trying to expose your own argument. Why not, opinions don't need to converge.
When you die since someone just launched a massive mob of monsters around you. It could just have been a dying player that didn't got a better idea at that time.

Were all the reasons stated above a good reason to ever be upset ? Yes, probably.

Were all the reasons stated above a good reason to ever lie somethings to another player and try to make her feel bad instead of you ?

No. This isn't a reason, not even close to a good one.

That evening, I came to the point I just went crazy, once again. People of my guild know I react like this sometimes, so it didn't scared them...

But why did I ever went as far as going to yelling at a close friend, even going to lie to her ? I have no idea...

Aeolian (or someone that knows her, please redirect her to this post), words cannot say how sorry I am for something I shouldn't haven even think of it. Words cannot express my regrets, neither can they even heal that wound I caused. I just hope that seeing this thread may show you that even if I don't look like, I'm trying, as best as I can, to ever repair my mistake, and at best, to show you that I truly care about you.

People may say what they want, I did it, and I don't think I deserve any kind of respect for what I've done to you. I will take the weight of shame as long as it needs to be taken.